help.

Date: 2/22/2019

i don't typically dream or remember my dreams much, being i wake up usually every 10-20 minutes every night. i've had the worst dreams thelast three nights. first night, my best friend/sister (abi) passed away. i think it had something to do with the relationship she's in. second night, the love of my life, sean, responded back to the messages i'd sent him for the last seven months, begging for his death to be some kind of joke.. i was able to see him and everything. we had another coffee date and another tattoo session. sean gave me a kiss on the cheek, and i woke up.. more of a sad realization than a bad dream. i sent him a message the day before. then realized after the dream that he's gone, all over again.. third night, my boyfriend (dayton) and i were living in a different house. there were weird little creatures everywhere, but it's like i was the only one who saw them. they gave me chills, which is crazy bc i love insane creatures and shit, but these things scared the hell out of me. i finally panicked and pointed out some of these things to dayton, and then he was gone.. as i watched two creatures slide down the wall, in some sort of sexual position, i watched the female thing slide down to the floor and the male was still attached and still exactly where it was.. i watched three incredibly insane spider/octopus looking things crawl over our dresser.. i watched these things all come for me and then i woke up.. i dunno what the hell is going on..