Spiritual Re-awakening Chakra / 3rd eye

Date: 2/22/2019

I'm living in a trailer; I just moved in recently. It's night time, around 8 pmish. My ex girlfriend comes over unexpectedly. I feel annoyed by her random appearance without a notice in advance, but as a guest, I act polite though she can clearly see the annoyance on my face. She's been drinking i can tell. We walk down the small hallway and into one of my rooms. I hear lots of loud talking outside and then police sirens. I run outside and see the cops and they begin questioning me. Nicholas somehow has really badly injured himself by weirdly falling face-first into a car through the roof. They say he has busted his forehead. I am panicking but i look at him and see blood pouring down from the center of his forehead / face. The whole neighborhood must've been there because all i see were people all around in my front lot. But by now, all the voices have drowned out and the faces are all blurred into a background. I'm panicking. Then i go inside my trailer, trying to piece everything together as they take Nicholas to the hospital. I look around and everyone is inside my home. People sitting at tables. Theres a birthday cake and decorations. I don't know anyone. But then i see two people i do know and it's Blackous and Chronic Crogan. So weird. They are trying to be there to comfort and I'm trying to make sense of everything. I see more people. And I'm still overwhelmed but then somehow end up with a mic in my hand and ask for everyone's attention while speaking. I sobbingly say something like: "I don't know how he got out! I literally walked away for 2 seconds! It's not my fault the front door doesn't lock! I didn't want to bug management and get yelled at! I'm so sorry!!! I'm going through so much right now that i can't remember so many things! Forgive me!" The room fills with judgmental whispers. Everyone looking at me. I'm so uncomfortable. Then i hear a woman at a nearby table yelling at her family or friends "The manager said we couldn't fix the locks ourselves either! I asked!" But still i feel everyone's anger and disappointment. I get even more overwhelmed now and manage to speak up for myself and say, "Look, if you're gonna be here just to judge me when I'm going through shit then leave! I don't need this right now!" People begin to stand up and this guy gives me such a disappointing look and shakes his head at me. He walks off with the others. A woman takes the birthday cake and her people she came with. At the sight of this my heart drops because i realize that so many people are leaving at a bad time like this. I feel despair. But something then swoops over me. I begin to shake it off too quickly and think (If these people REALLY cared for me they wouldn't leave or judge me they would understand to the best of their capabilities. Some have stayed. That's good enough. Let them go) and at the thought of that i felt better.