!!Please don’t read if triggered by suicide!!

Date: 10/30/2019

I was in my old HS gym with some family and friends but when you walked outside, you can still enter the gym from the other side. Kind of like the pac man course it just went in a circle. I remember starting the dream signing a assisted suicide contract but the lady just told me to sign my name and there were no take backs. I said okay but I was unable to go through the contract. I then remember running around the gym and only at a certain time and when I would get too far into the gym, this thin scary woman dressed in white with her hair covering her face would chase me and she was always super close until I could get back outside the gym. I remember climbing a tree that was outside the gym and thinking about the woman and my friends and family came up to me and tried talking me out of killing myself. I told them that I was just tired of living with myself and tired of being unhappy, and then I told my cousin to look at me and ask yourself if you would be happy in this body. I then remember changing my mind for some reason and I went up to the lady who made me sign a contract and she said no take backs. I don’t remember how but I found out that you could get out of the contract so I went up to the lady and I chocked her asking her if she knew I was able to go back on the contract and she nodded her head. I then began to beat the shit out of her. The dream then cut to another dream I remember at one point being at work and telling my coworkers that I had to go to a football game and they were excited for me. So I remember going to the game and afterwards the team would meet up in a pavilion and all the family members and fans would go and say hello to the team. I remember walking with my mom to the pavilion and I see my fiancé talking to some woman. I then walked up to him and it was the contract lady. I then started punching her and my fiancé pulled me off and the dream started again. I was back at work telling my coworkers about the game, went to the game, but this time when I walked to the pavilion, I was by myself. I still was able to kick that ladies ass but when I got up the dream transitioned again. I’m now in the pavilion and I don’t have a shirt on. I’m standing in the cold with just jeans on and everyone is casually telling me “hey man I think you need a shirt”. I remember walking up to one of my friends and asking him for a shirt and he told me I wouldn’t fit. So then this other lady came up to me and told me to ask her son he’s always wearing plenty. So I walk to her son and I ask him for an extra shirt. He takes off a gray shirt and underneath is another gray shirt, but when he hands it to me it becomes an astros shirt. He then tells me to make sure I give it back and I tell him not to worry I’m a rangers fan anyways. And then I woke up feeling scared.