Mother’s back and we are spied upon

Date: 3/16/2025

I’m in touch with my mother, it’s like I’m we’re both back at grandpa’s place. She looks through the bedroom window and cries, looking at the Eiffel Tower and saying “it’s only a 15 min walk, how I wish I could go see it from closer”. So I’m like “let’s go then!”. But she cries even more and tell me “no! They’re gonna no! Don’t ever tell people your address or phone number!”. I understand someone is spying on us and we are not free to go where we please! I get anxious, I start panicking, then she tells me somehow * and her aren’t together anymore, but she used the money to buy him an apartment and that’s why she’s here and he’s there, using up her resources. She shows me a prayer calendar, where she prays to the Virgin on Thursdays, but also to evil Moloch and I don’t get it! I don’t know if I can trust her, if it’s really over between them or if she’s scamming me again! I’m mad and cry and cry and cry. I wanna go to the police, but * mustn’t know. But at this point I don’t care! War is on and I want him down once and for all! I happen to meet a couple policemen at the newsagent’s and get to talking to one of them. He’s younger than me and remembers me from school in town. He also remembers my previous case of pressing charges, he says he’d worked on it. I try to tell him the whole story but can’t stop crying, I just want him to be OUT of our lives forever, it all feels like my life turned into that old nightmare again and I’m tired and at a loss.