Desperately seeking M

Date: 5/6/2019

By Jade0509

At a big event, so big that we have to choose between two restaurants. We are late and they want us to decide immediately. Before we decide I make some excuse and manage to get into the first to look around and see if MSP is there. The place is half empty and lacklustre. I choose the other. When I get there it’s heaving. The first people I see are Robert and Kelvin sitting in a group of people on two big facing sofas. We kiss hello and I think, as I turn to greet Kelvin who is standing behind me waiting to say hello, that at least I’ll know somebody. I think about calling or texting M but for some reason I don’t. There are long lines for something. I join them, scanning for M. I see him briefly in one but I don’t want to jump the queue so I join the back. Not sure if he saw me. I think again about texting and still I don’t. Why? I really want to have dinner with him. I’m wearing high heeled sandals and feel proud that I’m managing to walk in them. I find M, but a lot of others join our table and I’m slightly annoyed that we won’t be alone [IRL after First Reformed]. I’m playing Scrabble with someone. I have a Y which if I add to the board on a TL tile will make a second word YO. It’s not allowed so I add an N to spell YON. I’m told that isn’t a word, I insist it is. It’s like YONDER. I try to give examples of us but can only come up with “yon, there”. We argue.