Heart Racing

Date: 11/8/2022

I don’t particularly remember the rest of the dream, but I do remember this one moment… You see, my friend Claire and I, we share an apartment. One day we had our friend Alex over, and well, my relationship with him is kinda complicated. Anyways, he’s in our kitchen making something when he randomly bring up his shoulders/chest, and for some reason I respond that I can see them/it/him from my room??? Suddenly, he then comes into my room and sits on my bed with me, where I’m already lying down. I was simply just relaxing. However, as soon as he sat on my bed, my heart began to race. “What is he doing?” I asked myself. “This can’t be happening.” Anyways, he’s talking from where he is, but I’m too scared and distracted to be able to remember what he’s saying. Everything was so vivid now, and it felt like he really was right there in front of me. That said, Alex then moved a bit forward, and got on all fours. “What? Did you (finally) change your mind or something?” I asked him, but he didn’t respond. Instead, Alex just came even more forward. Now he was hovering over me, with his hands on the bed, either side of me. My heart began to race even quicker as I now looked directly up into his eyes. I was frozen in place, out of fear, anticipation, and excitement. I felt like a deer blinded by headlights. I’d never been kissed before. Suddenly, Alex then pulled back. I cursed god out, but at the same time, thanked him. Either way, Alex must’ve seen the fear in my eyes, yet hesitation to pull away from his advances. I was not ready for something like that.