Relationship nightmare

Date: 12/21/2019

Man what a horrible dream. I dreamt I went to a restaurant and my boyfriend was there with another girl sitting next to him. I was about to introduce myself as his (M) gf but before I could say anything, she said “Hi I’m M’s gf.” I was shocked and said huh? I’m M’s gf. Then M said he’d been seeing both of us for 3 months (M and I have been together about 8 months) and decided he wants to be with her. The girl had lighter blonde ish hair, seemed quite a bit younger, and was tiny/skinny/had a small build. I went crazy saying what? I thought you said you loved me and we loved each other, etc. We did all these things together, I introduced you to my family, my son, etc. He just looked indifferent like it wasn’t even him. I was like I didn’t even have time to date other people if I wanted to! Then I was talking to the girl telling her similar things and how we have been intimate and etc. She didn’t seem to care and said she was completely in love with him. I was crying so hard. She seemed really nice but I was so hurt. She told me her current email address with her first and last name and said soon she’s changing it to reflect her new last name of my bf’s last name. I was like omg you guys are getting married? Then he got in her car with her and I got in my own car. There was a picture of them on his Facebook profile looking happy. I kept calling him and finally he answered. He said “I wish I could hold you right now.” And I said what? Why are you doing this? Is it because I couldn’t spend enough time with you? Is it because she’s skinnier than me? And he said something about the ground. How it was uneven or fused together or idk? It was hard to understand. I said man I had those dreams people told us not to have s* and maybe this is why. I was crying like crazy and calling my mom, my sister, my best friend. I was trying to decide what to do with my future and graduate school. A few weeks ago I dreamt he kept telling me about a girl that was so nice. She was younger and blonde. And I was like ok she’s nice but what’s the big deal. And then another dream that I was talking with that girl possibly and she was telling me she’s so athletic and I was like well I’m really musical. But it wasn’t clear what it meant if anything. The only other thing I can think of is if it represents my insecurities. We’re currently away from each other because I’m on a weekend trip visiting family. Maybe subconsciously I’m worried he might like someone younger, skinnier, and blonde. Or maybe I’m worried the few disagreements we had would lead to that. Or like yesterday I was worried like what if I sacrifice all this time into the relationship and it doesn’t work out. Or even then, maybe I’m worried not seeing him enough etc (worries listed above) will lead to this. Man I’m so scared because sometimes I have dreams that come true. I just hope this is not one of them. I’ve had good dreams about us recently that he told me to tell him when I’m ready for a ring and my mom dreamt we were getting married. So now I have this dream and I just feel so sick and scared 😞