shy guy i love you

Date: 6/27/2019

this was a few nights ago and i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it or him. there was more to the dream but this is only the part with him. to start off, there was this town wide, public event that a lot of people from the town attended. what exactly it was, i couldn’t tell you. apparently, J had gotten hurt there and we were taking care of him. his unconscious body laid on a hospital type bed with white sheets in my room and all you could see was his head above the covers. at first, i had thought that he was dead and i couldn’t look at him through the door because it made me so sad. in the next part, it was night time and only dim lights were on in my room with him still in it. dad went in with me to show me he was alive. he never talked but he began to move and get up. i was so beyond relieved. i remember we were still taking care of him though and he was still sleeping in that bed. mom had told me that i would sleep in her room and he would take mine for the time being. there was another random part of my dream in between here, but fast forwarding, i was in this doctor type room with a few other women in including mom and there was something on the bed and it might’ve been him, i don’t remember, but i was pregnant. next, i was in school in the hallway sitting at my little blue fold out table with alanna, grace, someone i can’t remember, and noah. we were just casually talking when i brought up that i was pregnant. grace asked who the dad was and i just responded with, “you probably don’t know him but...” and that’s the last part i can remember with him involved. this dream has made me genuinely depressed for the past couple days and i can’t get my mind off him. the part that hurts the most is that i will probably never see him again and that i never gave myself a chance with him. and it was never mentioned in my dream, but i think the baby was a girl. i miss that.