Possessed I guess?

Date: 9/15/2018

I was driving back from something, on a highway by the river and mountains. It was rainy and getting dark and for whatever reason I kept almost dozing off or just kind of zoning out. I blink really fast to try to wake myself up and do anything I could to keep my attention on the road because I kept swerving crazily. I thought about pulling over, but I knew I just had to get back to town right away. I get to the city, after nearly crashing several times, but I don’t really remember how I got to the city. It’s just like a black spot in my memory. Then I look down and realize I’m not in my car anymore. I’m driving a bus, in the middle of traffic, and I don’t actually have any clue how to drive a bus! I slam on the brakes because everyone is stopping at a light, but it’s just not doing anything. The bus slows, and the brakes screech, but it just WONT STOP. I’m freaking out because there’s a motorcycle cop in front of me and this bus won’t stop and it bumps into him. And then stops. He puts his lights on then circles back around to pull me over while I motion to him that I don’t know where to pull over. He directs me to the curb, and then before he even has to chance to start talking to me inside the bus I break into tears saying “sir I don’t know how to drive a bus, please help me I don’t want to hurt anyone and I don’t know how I got into this bus or even where I am, please help me!!!” The cop is stoic, but he seems to believe I’m being genuine and comes over to calm me. He asks me questions but my answers are always the same. “No I don’t know how to drive a bus!” “No I didn’t start driving it on purpose.” “No I don’t know where I am, please help me” People outside had gathered and were staring at me and I was getting hysterical because I was so afraid that they wouldn’t believe me and that I’d be arrested or something, plus I really didn’t know how I got here or where my car was. The situation must get resolved, because then I’m back at my apartment (not my rl one) and my mom has come to take care of me while I recover. I wasn’t hurt during the incident, not physically, but my emotions have become unpredictable. One minute I’m fine, the next I’m inexplicably so depressed that I’m basically catatonic and can’t move a muscle, and the next I’m so angry that I’m threatening to kill my mom or something. And while the things happen, I’m not in control, it’s like I’m watching someone else operate my body, but I’m still in there. My mom is adamant that she can fix me, and has all these treatments she’s gotten from weird doctors. I don’t want them and it makes me more angry. We fight about her always being there and not letting me live on my own. One day I’m walking home on my own through a very urban-industrial feeling part of town to my apartment. I can’t really remember what happens, but I remember being led through a building with lots of metal and grates and steam and rust by a woman in a futuristic suit thing (it had like lights in the fabric that made it glow or whatever) and then she tried to kill me but I ripped out her heart instead with my bare hands and there was blood everywhere and then other people walked in and it was like a switch flipped because then I was back to catatonic depression where I was just listless and couldn’t even make myself move.

AI generated interpretation This dream may be reflecting a sense of feeling overwhelmed and out of control in your life. It appears that you experienced a range of emotions while dreaming, from fear to anger to sadness and even a sense of robotic detachment. The dream may be expressing a feeling of being unable to control your emotions, as if you are being “possessed” by them. The dream also suggests that you are feeling a sense of powerlessness in your life, as evidenced by your inability to control the bus or your own emotions. The dream may be reflecting a need to take control of your life and to assert your independence from those who are trying to “fix” you. The dream may be encouraging you to take the initiative to define your own life and to make your own decisions, instead of allowing others to make those decisions for you.