Sad

Date: 2/15/2018

I remember the dream started as me (I was someone else but it was “me” in the dream) trying to get out of the house I was in in a calm/dignified way. But underneath I was a dangerous level of sad to the point where if people saw me cry they’d know I was suicidal. The reason I was leaving the house was to escape but I think escape meant killing myself because once someone saw me leaving they really wanted to join me and talk things through but I ran out and locked the door from the outside some how. The closer I got to the destination I was heading the more sad the mood of the dream got because I wasn’t consciously aware that I was gonna kill myself I just subconsciously knew that’s what was gonna happen. But as I kept walking a group of people started walking towards me. I didn’t like the vibe I was getting and backed up a little. They picked up on my tension and ran towards me. The next thing I remember was I was part of this group that was kind of a sex cult but not really. The only sexual thing that happened was if they brought a new person into the group that that person had to lay in a bed and have sex with someone in front of everyone. I was the new person and was obviously reluctant. There’s more but I don’t want to say it because I don’t know how accurate my memory is from this point on in the dream.