Abused

Date: 6/3/2020

I kept changing character pov’s. First I was with my boyfriend and two other guys in a small single room that had a shower. The other two guys left but my boyfriend and I stayed and decided to use the shower. One guy came back with the intention of hurting/killing us. We locked the first door but couldn’t get the second door to shut. He eventually broke the door in and stabbed both of us to death. Then I was alive again, and the second boy was across the street. I watched in horror as he set up a rope and began to hang himself with it. I ran across the street to try and stop him but it was too late. I think it is important to note in this last section, I wasn’t *me* in this dream, and the “father” was not my dad either. I was in a home where my “father” would sexually abuse me, with the threat of killing me if I didn’t behave. I also had a pork allergy for some reason and he kept trying to feed me things I would be allergic to. I kept trying to escape and everytime I did (or attempted to) he would hunt me down and kill me, then I would “come back”. But still, everytime I tried to escape. The most recent escape attempt, I was in the house and he was describing how he was going to hurt me later. I claimed I needed to use the restroom but I ran to the nearest bedroom and kicked out the screen in the window. He came running after me yelling and cursing and tried to grab me but I made it out. He went to get his shotgun and I started running through the neighborhood. I made it to the far side of a neighbors house and hid in some bushes along the house, hoping I could stay out of sight. I was trying to control my heart rate and breathe quietly so he would not find me. I woke up from this dream terrified and with my heart pounding. After these dreams I was exhausted but so unsettled and could not bear to go back to sleep again, in case I would fall into the same dream.