Between Loyalty and Family, Sin and Misery

Date: 11/16/2023

At my home, the whole family gathered, and they were discussing many different subjects. Their conversations were flowing nicely, lots of laughter. They seemed so happy. Can't really tell if it was a holiday, but it looked like a mix of Carnival and Christmas. Our bathroom had an automatic air conditioner, neat! My brother switched his wagon for a Ford Escort, and to me, that was a bad negotiation. We talked a lot about Rafaela, my girlfriend, and she never leaves my mind. The whole house had a vivid ambiance that night, lights shining bright in every corner, and people all around. Except for my bedroom, the door was open, and it was dark. But I felt something calling me, telling me to go there for some reason. I went to my bedroom, no one even noticed my absence. There, I found Rafaela, but not my girlfriend, a red-haired friend of hers with the same name. I felt an attraction, pulling me to her, telling me to kiss her passionately. But that was an evil desire, and I somehow resisted. Went back to my family. At the corridor, I was watching the TV from the window and talking to my brother. The broadcast was showing a parade that was going on, a lot of hot chicks twerking, loud music, alcohol and crazy people. I told my brother, "This whole country is a party." I confessed that I wanted to join them, I wanted to live that freedom. And to my surprise, the parade was passing on my street, so I took the chance and joined them. The next thing I remember, I was in misery, with a negative bank account, trying to buy some booze and possibly drugs, running like crazy with no shoes on with a friend I met, through that rainy dawn.