Lunch with my Ex

Date: 7/4/2019

So I dreamt that I met up with my ex. Mind you, this is while I’m in a relationship with the love of my life. I have not talked to or seen my ex in at least a year. I see his family around all the time, but never him. Yesterday, I was going through snapchat, and saw his story. It was a picture of the passport photos of him and his sister. They looked nothing alike, but I gotta say, he didn’t look bad. I’m guessing that’s what triggered the dream later that night/ morning (I slept at 2am). In the dream, I went out to eat with my ex. It was a buffet-like lunch and he treated me to a lot of stuff. I even got seconds. Why he decided to spend so much money on me? I don’t know. But I wasn’t complaining. We sat together in a table for four. Instead of me sitting opposite to him, I sat next to him. I felt the same emotions I felt when I first met him: butterflies in my stomach. I wanted to be there with him. In the dream, I wasn’t thinking of my current relationship. In fact, I don’t even think I had a relationship in the dream. We were laughing and having a good time. He seemed different. As if a completely different person than the one I decided to leave. It was nice, having him there, and feeling comfortable with him. At some point I asked the following question: “so have you changed your mind about church and having kids?” I don’t know why I asked the second question because we had never talked about kids. He ended up just focusing on one part of the question, the part about kids. He smiles and nodded. He had changed his mind. I asked, “what made you change your mind?” He started talking about his gf. My heart dropped. I know that in the real world, he doesn’t have a gf, but his dream self did, and that broke my heart. He went on to talk about how happy she made him and how he couldn’t wait to start a family. I played it cool for the rest of the time we were together. But deep down, I was angry at myself for letting him go, and hurt that he would choose to have what we couldn’t have with someone else. In the end, we got separated by the crowd somehow and the dream ended.