AU of watching my grandma die- January 23, 2019

Date: 1/23/2019

This dream was really messed up. I was in some sort of alternate universe where my amazing grandma was still alive (she passed away from cancer a year and a half ago). I think I might have been dreaming about this because the night before I had been thinking about her a lot. In the dream we were spending time together. For some reason my brother and I were about to go act in a play but we were going to be late and I can't remember why. So in this alternate universe, all of a sudden a guy got into our house and he wanted to hurt me. My grandma jumped in front of me and was killed right in front of my eyes to protect me. I sobbed and ran away. The rest of the day I had to pretend like I was ok but I was mentally scarred and I couldn't stop replaying it in my mind. Finally, my mom asked if I wanted to talk about it because she saw the expression on my face and I burst out into tears and hugged her. I said "I miss her so much. I don't know what I could have done differently but... She was an amazing person and I wish I did something differently." The dream ended with me sobbing into my mom's arms.