Relapse Dream

Date: 4/30/2019

I had a dream that I was using with people I met off of Grindr. I met up with Ian and we had sex with this guy and girl. This guy we were fucking had a big dick and I remember messing with the girl. I’ve never had a dream like that. I left and had to realize the fact that I relapsed. I met back up with Ian at a random spot where my lead therapist at the McDonald center was. I was hiding the fact that I relapsed but I needed to find Ian. The house was haunted and my best friend and I ran to find the car. We found Ian and he came with me. We smoked a cigarette and I felt so close to him. I remember things started to change and I went to my moms and told her I hated her for everything because I felt like I did this because of her. I left my keys in my car so I had to find a spare in her bedroom. I woke up