Worst cheating dream I’ve had

Date: 8/20/2018

I had a long and tedious dream that my boyfriend was cheating on me. I know I’ve subconsciously thought about it before but this dream felt so long and played out that it was honestly draining. In short my boyfriend and i were engaged or planning to be when i noticed he started talking to this person i went to high school with. In real life they don’t know each other and i wasn’t even friends with this person so I’m not sure why she was there. At some point Lucas started texting me about some random new college he was going to and dear didn’t like that at all so i feel like he was trying to talk to this girl out of spite. I tried to hide my messages and make it so he couldn’t know about them every way possible. The more he knew that i was talking to him, the more he kept ignoring me and was focusing on this other girl. It got to the point where David and I weren’t going to be engaged anymore and he was planning on marrying this other girl instead. I was furious. Outside of the dream life i put together why i thought i was dreaming certain parts. In my subconscious mind i often worry about if he’s going to want to still be with me (normal insecurity, not a big deal) and in my passing thoughts i still think about Lucas from time to time. Not in a loving, i miss you kind of way but more of his well being. As much as i have come to turns about how shitty the relationship was he is still a magical person. Think of it like a one of a kind person that you know you’ll never meet again in your life. Another big waking factor is that I’ve been being an asshole and pushing David to marry me. Which sometimes i don’t always mean to do but i know that’s where i want my life to head towards. As for the girl he was messing around with...what the fuck was she doing there? She wasn’t even a friend i had from high school, i just knew who she was from the second she appeared in the dream. Emily was her name, and when she came up on his phone in the dream i thought, what in the actual fuck and how are you involved in this? Looking back on it now it was funny but when i woke up i was so angry.