Lucid Grid Room

Date: 4/10/2019

I was coming in and out of half sleep/awake. I kept experiencing things that were bothering me in my room. At one point I thought I heard Noah knocking. At another, a large bug buzzing around the room. And then the third, thought I saw a grey alien at my door. I tried rising from the bed to deal with each one but it was like some force held me down. I fought the resistance with all my energy with some success but not much. It would not even let me fully rise from bed. I was really in a dream state without even knowing it, but I think it was a half dream half awake type state. I was in a state of anxiety about these things happening and finding it hard to sleep. I finally made the conscious decision to accept my reality as it is even if something bad were to happen to me. My consciousness began to shift. My awareness went into my third eye, and kaleidoscope patterns emerged. I also felt the feeling that typically precedes a lucid dream. The patterns disappeared and I felt myself descending into the dream. I saw the familiar grid illuminate the ground. But this time it was more like a grid room where I could see walls where the floor grid bent up and around me. I landed with a little imbalance. I could still feel my physical body, and my cat was laying at my feet and I didn’t want to move to wake him. I focused in my third eye and looked at my hands. Forms became sharper around me. The room was dark and dimly lit by the blue light of the grid lines. A creature appeared in front of me. Instantly I knew it was my fears manifesting. So I immediately I invited it to me and opened my arms to embrace it. It did not attack. But I did begin to lose the dream. Focusing in my third eye again and looking at my hands corrected this. When I regained control again the room illuminated. At one side there were plastic naked life sized dolls, some with their heads torn off. I had a feeling in that moment that I had seen them before, possibly even many times before, in lucid dreams. Now being awake I can’t remember any time I have. But in the moment they must have represented a memory of some kind. They did not scare me, I picked up one of the torn off heads, it was like an Annabelle doll type. I tossed it to the side and ahead I saw a door. I went through the door and on the other side were two other doors and a passage to a staircase going down. I went through the door on the left, and it was a bathroom. So I came back and went through the second door, also a bathroom. Confused, I went for the stairs. But I could already feel the dream collapsing and by the time I got to the stairs it was done.