Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 3/28/2018
By kayssss
So let me preface what spawns this dream, and the series of dreams like it. A couple of months ago (December 2017) I was sexually assaulted by an ex boyfriend, who had done similar before. I trusted this information in one person only, even then I did not tell her the full story. This person told me that she was my friend, and at the time I believed it. At the time of the incident I was with a guy and had been for about four months. We hadn’t know each other for very long, and took things fast, but it was true, and I could see a future with him, and he said the same to me. A couple of days before Christmas 2017, I was laying in bed after a night of watching TV with my family. I flipped my phone on to see a bombardment of messages. I’m short the friend I thought I trusted had told my boyfriend at the time, and she didn’t tell him the full story. She left it at the fact that I had “cheated” on him, and the she refused to talk to me. I was left heartbroken and without any closure for the rest of the winter holiday. And that’s where I still sit. Lately (almost every night) I have reoccurring dreams that we some how are in a situation together, and we begin talking and fighting. But I’m the end we finally tell each other how we truly feel. We confess that the anger we exhibited was simply an easy cover up for the immense pain and sadness we felt without each other. And like the dreams where you are falling from a building, I wake up before he can take me in his arms again, and I loose the complete feeling of peace I once had.