frogs and trauma (literal fever dream)

Date: 9/27/2022

the first part was nice. i was at a summer camp or something idk maybe it was supposed to be college lol. we were playing outside and it started to get dark and rain and we were under these really tall spruce trees and there were pine needles on the ground. it makes sense shut up. and then i found a giant cute soft frog and picked it up and it jumped onto my leg then looked up and jumped to my stomach. then it jumped on my face and i had to quickly get it off bc i couldn’t breathe. i put it on my arm and it stayed there. then we found another big frog that was more angly. i tried to pick it up but the other frog fell off and started jumping at me and biting me bc it was mad i put it down. the second part traumatized me. we decided to go into my underground fort. it was a bit squished but it worked. i went in and my mom must’ve put the pets in bc they were all there hanging out. i asked if the person behind me closed the door bc otherwise they would get out and they hadn’t so i went to close it. there was an oven further back in the fort and it had a door you had to close otherwise it would get hot and the animals would be able to get into it. i went out of the fort and my mom started using it to grill, but no one had closed the door. i saw carl was in there and i pulled him out. she was being dumb and was like no he’s supposed to be in there he’s fine and i was like HES IN THE GRILL/OVEN MOM WHAT THE FUCK. i kept yelling at her to turn it off and get him out and explaining why he was gonna die if she didn’t and she wasn’t getting it and was weirdly calm. they looked flattened in there and i kept imagining what would’ve happened and what they would’ve looked like if she had closed the grill cover and i wasn’t there. like beef jerky. or a squirrel in the road. after i pulled him out one of the dogs got in there too and i had to pull them out quickly and get my mom away from it and turn off the grill. i went to check on carl and his tail had fallen off. there was a small piece kind of attached but then it fell off and he just had a nub. meanwhile my mom was trying on new work clothes she ordered online. he was curled into a ball sleeping on my bed and i saw the rest of his stiff tail lying next to him and i screamed. my mom calmly walked in like u good and carl didn’t wake up. maybe i wasn’t loud enough.