So Embarrassing

Date: 9/7/2021

I was in the old apartment. There was a lady standing by the window. She had her legs spread out flashing her underwear to anyone who could see from outside. She was turned so I couldn't see her face at first. Just her backside. A very nice backside. It was so unexpected that I did a reality check and realized I was dreaming. I wasted no time. As soon as I was lucid, I walked up to the lady as she was still looking out the window and tore off her underwear. At this point I was already rock solid so I began to fuck her. Moments into the act I realized I couldn't feel anything. Maybe a change of pace? Still nothing. It was an odd feeling. I felt contact but no pleasure. I spun the lady around to get her onto the table to see if I can get a different angle. That's when I saw her face for the first time. It was really blurry at first. As it came into focus, I realized it was my mom. I jumped back. Had to remind myself it was just a dream. Her face wouldn't change tho. Never had luck with manipulating my dreams in the past. Still, I closed my eyes for a few seconds and tried really hard. I wasn't thinking of a particular face, just wanted it to change into anyone else's. When I opened my I found myself lying on the floor. I thought I woke up. I came to realize the room was packed with relatives. All silent and all looking at me. My brother said I was talking in my sleep. Oh fuck. My mind began racing and I wondered if I said anything about my mo- nananana ain't no way. The whole room, maybe 20+ people, was staring at me speechless. They knew. Fuck they must know. Why else is no one saying anything. Some looked petrified, others disgusted. How could I even explain? I literally did not know till it was too late. I just walked past the whole room. Slowly. I felt it all. The judgement. It was was truly torturous. Praying for a way out, I thought maybe this is a bad dream. I could still be dreaming. I was already mentally exhausted so I forced myself to wake up.