schizophrenia

Date: 12/24/2016

I had severe schizophrenia when I was about 6 up until I was 7 and usually the hallucinations last only about half a second or 1 second mine could last about 10 seconds or 5 minutes and usually the hallucinations would have voices so I could hear them and I was thinking about my hallucinations when I was little a couple hours before I went to sleep so this is probably how I had this dream anyways I can't really remember much of this dream but it revolves around this girl with blonde hair and I'm looking out the window and I'm really high up and I'm on a steep hill and its gloomy outside and there's a creek and a girl somehow pops up in the living room and I say how did you get here? and she said she had some sort of special power?? I can't really remember and then I think I'm over my grandparents now and I'm standing in the doll room where I usually sleep and were just talking and then it shifts over I'm now walking on a dirt road with her and were just talking I think in my dream I was friends with this girl for a while but I noticed in my dream that people were looking at me weird and in my dream its like my whole family abandoned me anyways I was in this house thing I think?? idk I can't really remember but this dream lasted for a while and I think I got really attached to this girl and we got along so well and then one day she disappeared and I figured out it was just all an hallucination and then I'm in the kitchen with my brother and he's on a Skype call with his boyfriend and I say do you remember the girl with the blonde hair? and he says umm no and then his boyfriend hangs up and I say yeah I think I have schizophrenia again and then I wake up