Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 9/11/2017
By DesertDream
Hello future me or anyone else if I decide to post this, I am a girl i'm a person a human being a living thing and sometimes I feel trapped within my on words, thoughts and fears like anyone else does and you feel like you're locked between two brick walls and evertime you wanna escape the walls close a little bit more and all my life i've wanted to escape these walls but so far it's been a dead end. I have hopes for myself and the world, I have dreams I want to become reality and I would love to live out my dreams and become a singer in a band not just because I love music not just because no matter how loud the storm is i'm in a bliss a peaceful zone where nothing feels too far out of reach but also because I want to make a difference in the world our world and I can do that through music though actions and though words but every time I open my mouth I freeze I have stage fright and right now writers block but nothing seems to help I have problems with other things but who doesn't. My point is not to ask for help or throw my problems on someone else or just myself it's to let everything every thought every word every sound all of it just out and even though I would gladly take help i'm too scared to ask only few very few l people know my goals in life or what I want to get out of life but not my parents they think they're not so strict but they kind of are sometimes and judgemental so i'm stuck in the middle of a dead end and paradise a toxic paradise and this post is just to try to let go and get some things off my chest so maybe I can breathe it may not sound like a lot but trust me i'm only posting the first layer of the mess that I am.XDesertDreamX