Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 11/5/2017
By Jadders
I was walking to a changing room to start getting ready for a huge sports game. I had my big shoulder bag full of clothes to get changed into. I entered the hall and walked to the back, aiming for the changing room when someone had shoulder barged me, and said 'creep'. The bag fell off my shoulder, and before I could pick it back up, I had a flash back to when I used to self-harm. It felt like I was in this flashback for ages. I could have only been standing there for no more than 5 minutes. When I came back around, people were staring at me, shouting abuse. I picked up my bag and ran to the changing room. Before I knew it my mum was there. Everyone was telling her how fucked up of a person I am. (I'm really not). As if I had a full mental breakdown in the hall. As I slammed the door to the changing room I went into another trance having a flash back. This time, I was in an office waiting for my mum and dad to come out of the other room. But for some reason, I could hear everything that was being said in there. The doctor was telling them how mental Ill I am. Somehow, they found my drawing book, and they really didn't like some of the drawings and phrases that I had put in there. All three of them came out of the room, looked at me, and walked over. They said they are concerned for my safety as if I was going to hurt myself seriously. I came out of the flash back and was just leaning against the door. My mum kept asking if I had taken my medication and if I was okay. I walked out of the changing room, and everyone gave me pity and sympathy looks. It wasn't right, I just remember shaking with fear and then waking up.
AI generated interpretation Based on your dream, it seems like you may be struggling with feelings of insecurity and possibly past trauma related to self-harm. The flashbacks in your dream may represent these unresolved issues resurfacing and causing distress in your current life. The fact that people in the dream were calling you a "creep" and shouting abuse at you also suggests that you may be feeling judged or criticized by others in your waking life. The mention of medication in the dream could suggest that you may be taking some sort of medication or have considered taking it to cope with your emotional state. It is important to note that seeking professional help, such as therapy or counseling, can also be a valuable tool in managing your mental health. The presence of your mother in the dream may indicate a desire for support or validation from a parental figure. It is possible that you may feel like others are not understanding or accepting of your struggles, and this may be causing you to feel isolated or alone. Overall, it is clear that your subconscious is processing unresolved emotions and experiences related to mental health. It may be helpful to explore these feelings further in therapy or through other self-care practices such as journaling or meditation.