dying chickens

Date: 5/20/2018

it's about two different dreams actually. in the first dream i'm in the backyard of my gradma's house, and in my hand there's a baby chicken in my hand. i think i'm also with some friends or idk and for no reason i thought that i'd be so cool and it would make me look so badass to just kill it. so i just drop it on the ground and then i smash it with my foot and everyone is disgusted by it and so am i and i just regret what i did cause i kinda love animals and chickens specifically but the thought of looking cool just got over my mind and i killed it. now, in my second dream i'm at some farm i think but i believe it's still at my grandma's place and there's A LOT of chickens in there. this time, i'm alone and i really am not trying to impress anyone but i STILL want to kill those chickens. so i grab the knife and cut their head open. i kill only a few of them because soon after i start feeling a deep feeling of regret and sympathy for the ones i've already killed. so i stop, but then i realize that my grandparents will come soon to feed all the chickens and they will be dead so i start panicking a lot. at this point i confess the murders to my mother and she just laughs. it's weird but it made me feel better. and then i woke up. :)