I don’t know how to feel about Jake in this one

Date: 4/28/2020

Me and Kamryn walked around school on Halloween, and we kept running into Allie N. Eventually I lost Kamryn and walked around the school with Allie N, and it was actually fine. But then she had to leave to tech for some big auditorium show. So I was alone. I walked around for a while until I found Katie S, and I walked her home. Her front yard was extremely steep, almost a 90 degree angle. I dropped her off and was back at school with Kam, Jake, and Mai. I don’t really understand what happened BUT he said he would have sex with Kam and Mai but looked at me in disgust. It really hurt my feelings but I tried not to show it. I heard Jake making out with Mai and it was gross and weird. We went to this bed that was outside, Owen leech was asleep in the bed. Ian was at his bedside, Mai had left by now. They all discussed, something... I couldn’t hear them at all. Something about a convenient store. Kamryn stormed away and I left because clearly my friends didn’t want anything to do with me right now. I go to the bathroom and it’s extremely small, you have to crawl around to actually get anywhere. I crawled everywhere and didn’t feel comfortable in there so I crawled to the exit. Wall to wall was covered in different small doors, half of them when opened just shows brick. I opened one only to find a small hallway. I immediately shut the door. Whatever was in that hallway didn’t need to come out. I walk to this big mall ish area and a few guys are sitting at a low table and ask if I want anything. They said I could write anything I wanted on a slip of cloth, and if I attached it to myself as well as be loyal to the group, I could have absolutely anything. I was thinking of recreating another dream I’ve had (subconsciously) They kept pressuring me and I eventually got mad and left. I found Jake at the exit and told him that I’ll walk him home. We got to his apartment complex but we had to hide from the guards multiple times, and then eventually infiltrated them and had a blast messing around. Eventually I had to leave. I tried to run but all the guards followed me into my neighborhood. I was getting more and more lost, Jake was right behind me because he was scared I’d get shot. Eventually he got me home, and I was happy.