Controlling

Date: 4/24/2018

I dreamt I had a controlling boyfriend. Usually I remembrr that I'm with Chris in RL whenever I have a dream character bf but this time I didn't remember. He had Black hair, black eyes, really weird vibe. Just being around him in the dream made me uneasy and scared. Almost demonic presense. He took me and lily speeding down the highway in an old lincoln. It was very red in the car. Not the car itself, but the whole dream had a reddish in varying degrees. I would look in the backseat to Lily and I knew he was going to do something to her. She also looked very worried. We eventually arrived at a backyard behind a very generic looking house with plastic siding. He started kicking lily and almost killed her. He told me to bury her in the backyard under a bush. I was crying but was too scared to say no. I buried her partially alive under the bush. We got back on the highway into the car(everything was tinted red again) and I kept thinking about Lily and how I would come back for her when he's not by me. Eventually I was by myself and called a friend to drive me back. I was very anxious and kept hoping I would just make it there in time to save her. I unburied Lily and she was barely breathing. I rushed her to a vet and they said almost all her bones were broken and showed me the xray. I was hopeful we would be able to repair them but I remembered vets usually just put dogs down if the damage is this severe. I felt responsible for her death and not standing up to him. The dream I had after that, I was at a store collecting makeup. Most of the makeup was used and dirty and for some reason I was laying on my stomach on a stretcher that would move around the store. I stole a lot of makeup too. Had another dream I was at my dad's old apartment back when I was 10. It's weird because I remembered the exact home phone he used to have and this wooden braided table he would put it on, the old computer, the cabinet all the way on the righthand side in the kitchen where he would keep candy. I also a lot of the random details of the apartment that I haven't thought about in years. I have this dream a lot but I've never remembered in and such detail. And this time, I started renovating it. Moving in all white furniture.