Silent Hill meets Spirited Away

Date: 11/29/2017

I was a kid of a Japanese goddess who lived in some kind of god castle. She had secretly turned on the gods and was planning to kill them but was blending in to do so Bc they were monsters who happened to have powers but ppl called them gods but they did horrible things And I discovered her diary and how mad she was abt women getting taken advantage of and she would kill the male gods that had raped & killed women And she would commune with the dead women to tell them "hey I killed him for u" and give her peace But the only way to reach out to the dead women was to eat the flesh of the guy who had killed her I guess since they were all these god/monster creatures it was technically cannibalism but heck monsters eat monsters all the time in Japanese mythos so I'm not insane My brain did make some pretty horrible looking gods tho like Silent Hill but if Miyazaki wrote it They were like a huge society of then like crowds and some were considered unworthy bc they were hideously deformed Lemme see if I can remember some of what dream mom wrote abt them in her diary. I heard it like a voice over while looking at them all; it was pretty cool: "I think that the gods all have beautiful colors, except when they're asleep. When they're asleep, it's like they're dead." note, this was some kind of true. When they slept they were trance-like and lifeless and turned grey. I think it was possible for them to be possessed or have visions or be manipulated during that. After eating a piece of flesh: "I wonder how many women I just reached. How many suffered because of him." Panning over a walking crowd of gods, some beautiful and some disgusting: "All wore crowns, but some now do not." Dream mom loved me but I think dad had been killed long ago, maybe for being mortal. She had some co-conspirators who got caught and some male gods dragged them to her room to confront them all together. So mom just killed them. Her cover was probably blown tho. It's a shame the dream ended cuz I know it woulda been kickin up from there. She looked kinda like Kubo's mom but different.