I have no idea

Date: 9/18/2016

So last night I had a dream about something and I cannot remember for the life of me what it was all I know is it had to do with Ryan and him being sad like super sad about something I did and I really want to remember what it was. I remember waking up wanting to come out to my living room and grab my iPad and write it in but I told my self I'd remember what it was and I could write it in the morning. I think it had to do something which me like writing in my journal about how I really don't love him and I am still in love with my ex and how I want to leave him and take our son and go get back together with my ex but I'm not sure..... I really want to remember what it was.