Zen and Zeal

Date: 1/27/2018

All I remember from this dream is that I was in a hotel room that looked like a more modern version of my grandparents’ house. When I entered, Kieran and someone else (I forgot who) were jerking off. Also, I remember my mum interrupting (nobody was caught…) but then, she left. I then remember lying my head on Kieran’s stomach as he enveloped his arms around my chest and neck. For the first time, it was strikingly astonishing that I did NOT feel awkward at all being hugged by someone. I felt extremely peaceful and like I could even fall asleep in his arms (we were in the living room except that it had a bed and looked much more modern). I then asked if Kieran could jerk me off (or if I could… I forgot) and he said yes with a smile. I guess that I got inspired from the events prior to this! After, I forgot what happened exactly but for some reason, we were back in the living room except that there was no bed. For some reason, it seemed like we were on the floor. I told Kieran that I really wanted to do it and he seemed really excited (except that he remained very calm as well). Mr. Katz came out of the bathroom and left (I have no idea why) and Kieran was already naked, only his sleeping bag covering the bottom half of his body. I suddenly felt an incredible zeal of excitement, looking at him in absolute awe. I was so moved that it took me a few seconds to grab his dick. I started to rub it and I couldn’t believe that this was happening. He began to rub mine as I approached my dick to his… WHAT DO I THINK? This was probably one of the best dreams that I have ever had. Recently, I have been thinking about Kieran more and really began to like him - not only for his looks but also for his very nice personality. I would have never thought of such intimate events without this dream however, I value the hugging moment even more than the sexual part because it was the first time that I felt so relaxed whilst being with someone. Also, I find it interesting that any romantic contact with someone has practically always been with men. I have NEVER dreamed of being hugged by a woman or having sex with one, probably confirming that I need a man and not a woman in my life.