A Weekend at My Ex’s

Date: 7/17/2020

Okay, I’m trying to remember as much as I can, so I’m sorry if it seems all over the place. I was at my ex’s mom’s house just getting along with his sister and everything—doing things around the house for his mom. For some reason, I ended up calling my friend to come pick me up and she just walks in without introducing herself. I introduce her as my roommate, and they’re like “cool”. I leave, but then I end up back at the house only this time my ex was there. Between me and everyone on this app, I’m still in love with him and haven’t seen him in m o n t h s. This was the first time in a while that I really dreamt of him. Anyways, he’s there at the table doing his homework, and I’m doing my best to ignore him. I was there for his mom and sister—doing something I can’t remember. At some point, I realize we’re alone. He notices too and uses that opportunity to talk to me. He’s holds up his papers and is like “Which do you want to do? The dishes or this?” That’s when I notice the bunch of dishes piled up in the sink. I look at his homework and laugh because ain’t no fucking way I’m gonna let him use me to finish his work. He laughs too. I think I start on the dishes anyway, and that’s when I hear someone talking about me and my ex. I turn around and it’s (bear with me) my roommate’s mom’s boyfriend, only in this dream he’s dating my ex’s mom. We’ll call him Sensei. He was being so negative. I can’t remember exactly what he was saying, but it was pissing me off. So I told him to stop talking to me. It’s like the next day, I got ready and I come out the room. My ex sees me and he compliments me. I don’t know why, but that shit hit my heart, and I was so nervous. I was like “Huh?” And he repeated himself like “You look hot?” I laugh again and we end up talking for a little bit. I didn’t realize his mom was standing off to the side, but she seemed happy we were “reconnecting”. I ended up sleeping in his bed with him that night. Sensei finds out and starts acting crazy. Like he’s so bothered by me and my ex that he threatens to beat him. So I pull my ex closer to me and hug his head to my chest. Really protective like. And I’m telling Sensei he’s not gonna touch anyone. Which makes him even more mad. He’s yelling at me calling me dumb for falling for my ex again. I’m like “I don’t care. You’re not gonna hurt him.” And when I tell you, I felt that energy—even after I woke up. It was so strong. But, yeah, I ended up waking up shortly after that. 🥺