The beginning of the abuse

Date: 9/28/2019

Boy friend problems right now I don’t think my boy friend loves Me anymore . I told him that I had to relive the day my brother forced me to have sex. I was a 11 going on 12 and he was 16 going on 17. He fulled me by first asking me if I new what sex was. At the time I didn’t know what it really was so I told him it’s when girls dance on the wall with barely any clothes on. My brother had said that’s kinda right. Than he had told me to dance for him like the people on tv, of course i kelps my clothes. At the moment I saw nothing wrong with what I was doing just dancing on the wall. The next day he came into my room and told me to follow him to the co and on there were neckade women and men doing the nasty to each other. At first my thoughts were yew what does he have me watching .i tryed to walk away fro the computer buy he forced me to watch it by talking my shoulder and pushing the down. After a while of watching it my brother put his hand down my shirt were my boobs were. I could barley speak I was in shock that e was touching me like that , I had finally told him to stop after I realize what he was doing I so I told him to stop instead he pulled my boobs to the point were it hurt so much when he was done my breast were throbbing this had lasted till my mom had got home from work.the first day of the abuse began