Meta dream

Date: 10/10/2025

I had a very interesting dream. Basically I was with my friends, Jade, Jades friend Kennedy, and Marwan. Jade in real life is my friend and she can be bossy. So in the dream, We were in the Starbucks parking lot, she told me to go get her Starbucks that she had ordered. And I went to open my car door and get it but then I said nevermind, you go get it! So she went and got it. Then she got back in the car and we were driving. We were all talking and I said something kind of corny/funny and Kennedey said “you’re so lame Richelle”. But I didn’t take it the wrong way so I laughed it off because I knew my joke was kind of corny. But then she went on to say, “and on instagram, you don’t look lame. Like your body looks curvy. But in real life it’s straight down and she signaled with her hands” so that ruined the whole vibe in the car. All I could gather up To say was “really?” And she said “yeah, you would think your body looks like that in real life but it doesn’t.” And I said “so you think that I’m lame in real life but not on instagram.” And she said “yup” and then I said “so get the fuck out of my car” and I came to a stop. She got out but was like shocked that I did that but she didn’t say anything. Then we continued driving and I said can yall believe she said that. And Jade said “it’s because we think you’re jealous of me”, and then in my head in the dream. A DJ rewind spin sound effect came on because what!?. And that’s what I said. And she went on to explain that I’m jealous of her and she knows it and that I’m insecure and that’s why Kennedy was saying all that stuff, to make sure I know that they know that I’m insecure and jealous. This was all crazy to me. Jade then went on to say that she knew from years ago, and made up a complete lie about that I got mad because a guy in SummerStart wanted her and not me, and I was banging on her door while she was with him and told him to come out and to get out of her room. But at that time I didn’t know her. But this story was completely made up. But that’s her “story” that that’s when she knew i was jealous of her. And I said that never even happened and she swear it did. And then suddenly we were on a courtyard talking about it and Kennedy was there. And Marwan was defending me. And I felt like I was just getting betrayed by one of my closest friend. But it’s so crazy because even though I hate to admit it… it is kind of true. I am very insecure, and although I love Jade and I wouldn’t say I’m “jealous” of her, I do sometimes ask how come she gets this and I don’t, or how come she gets all this attention and I don’t. And my boyfriend in real life wanted her before so that also adds to that. And Kennedy was kind of right. I did edit one of my instagram pictures before by a lot and made it look nice because I was being insecure. I didn’t edit my body a whole lot, just a bit, but I still did it. And now I’m embarrassed and going to delete it because of this dream. And it was just a wake up call that I need to be more confident and love myself more. And it made me sad because I’m still with my boyfriend after he cheated on me because I lack self worth. My mind projected those feelings onto other people in the dream, so it felt like they knew my secrets, but really it was me talking to myself through them.