Sleep Paralysis

Date: 6/24/2016

Before I knew that I'm experiencing "sleep paralysis", I thought I'm having like a near death experience haha. It's been awhile since I experience it again. Last night. Mine is different from other sleep paralysis dreams. Mine is not that scary. Well because I experienced it alot before, i somehow knew if I'll be having sleep paralysis. :> But last night I haven't predicted it. It's still the same. Im in my own room, lying on bed. The scene/view before I go to sleep is the same as im having sleep paralysis. Again, i panicked when I realize im in a dream and having sleep paralysis. Nothing scary pop up, i knew it when im also in the dream. The thing that scares me is loosing my breath. Im literally cant move, its like im tied up in the bed but theres no ropes or chain, just me and my room. Again ill try to move but i cant until i got tired, then ill pray and then when im about to loose... I keep moving, and telling myself wake up, i even call mom, i shout but nobody hears me even myself... Its like im having a battle between life and death. Im not that really afraid of death, sometimes i even wish to die but then... When you're there, youll just ask yourself. Am I really that NOT afraid of death? at the verge of trying to get back your life during the sleep paralysis.. You'll also think that do I just have to let it go? I don't even know why Im here. But still you didn't let go. Well because I already opened it up, I'll reminisce my first sleep paralysis. This is also the only sleep paralysis that someone is there with me. That time, im lying in bed... There's someone beside me sitting on my bed. He/she is wearing a white suit. Although I cant see his/her face i felt so comfortable. Thats also the only sleep paralysis that is not really scary? I think haha. I still cant move, calling out my mom, then try to move, but i stopped, i give up and let loose and just looked at that human beside me.. And also it's bright at that time, like dream lights? Haha. I felt like I just had given up my life peacefully... But well I waked up, soak of my own sweat, catching my breath. And thats how it all started. But the following sleep paralysis is nothing like that. Its me, chained up with invisible chains/roped tying on my bed and its somehow dark., cant move, cant speak.Then slowly taking my breath away. As soon as I got back from reality It's a must to not sleep for 30 mins or an hour... You must try hard to hold back being sleepy and turn on the lights. I still feel lucky that mine is just that, unlike others who seen scary shit creeping out into them. Well I said awhile ago that my first sleep paralysis is not that scary(with a question mark) few years later, everytime I remember that dream, i keep asking who's that person beside me? Why is that I can only see his body when he/she is beside me. The I realize, what if..... He/she do not have its head. 😱😱😱😱😱