Date: 5/1/2019
By levinelover
I was living with my cousins, and because of that I never wore makeup in the house. They thought I looked super different, or at least Ethan did. I was sitting on their couch when he made a comment about it and we talked about how I don’t wear makeup when I’m home. I started to play brawl stars. There were all these new different options for changing your name colour that you had to buy with gems. They were dark and nice dusty colours. They had dark dusty blues and purples. I was wondering if I should keep saving my gems or if it was worth it. The dustyness of the colours I didn’t love, but it looked really chill which I did love. I wanted the dark purple one. My ex-mom came into the room and Ethan made a rape joke to her since she’d been raped. “move to the south so you can get someone rich and get more abused”. He had no filter whatsoever! I was so satisfied, cause she fucking deserved it. She was oddly chill about it though. I realized my life is the only life. I realized other people’s needs couldn’t come before mine, because I’m the only me and the only one who matters. Then me and Ryland (he was my brother) climbed into the open roof of a tool shed, it was cool because once you go in there’s sections. We went in, and he got into the roomy part. I tried to get in, but I just plain didn’t fit no matter how bad I wanted to get in there, I was too big. Ryland said it was a tight fit for him too squeezing in but now that he’s in there it’s roomy. I tried again to get in, but just couldn’t. I wasn’t as small as I was when I was younger. Ryland wanted to spend the night in there, which sounded awful to me. It was open, and it was supposed to snow that night so we were gonna be freezing and miserable. Then, hands came breaking through the floor of the tool shed attic floorboards and reached out to us! It was terrifying! One hand for him and one at me. Through it came me from the last and Ryland from the past. Past me looked just like Eugenia Coony! She looked at me and told me I got really fat. I looked at myself and even though I was used to it and didn’t mind it, I was slightly overweight, not at super thin as I used to be. Last me wasn’t satisfied with how I turned out.