Hated by my mother

Date: 12/15/2016

I don't remember all the details. What is clear was my mother hated me because I was being me. She refused to kiss me on the cheek or give me a simple hug. Why do I dream about females as cold emotion-free people? What is this part of me? And yes I'm a single male with few female friends. It's rare for me to spend any time with a female but when I do I love it.