House, Job, McDonald’s and choking toddler

Date: 4/9/2019

I was hanging out at a subsidized housing place. It was a bunch of small dark dark homes, I was chilling on a front porch alone just staring into the distance thinking, hey this area isn’t so bad after all. I could live here, I should move in. It was downtown, but it really didn’t seem that dangerous or inconvenient. I could really see myself living there and thought I’d look into it. I was hanging out inside a community centre or something, I knew most people there. It was a place where disabled or in need teens went for help. I hung out there often with the staff and befriended them. They all loved me there, and one day one of my friends who worked there gave me her wallet with all her credit cards and work ID. All her work credentials were in there and she just gave it to me as a gift and quit. Having that wallet meant I was the one who worked there now! I showed my grandma and laughed saying looks like I have a new job 🤷🏼‍♀️ I went to talk to the manager, just to make sure. I told him and my grandmother this job made good money but I wasn’t sure because I still wanted to work at Value village. The manager told me I had 3 hours to decide if this was my job or not, and if this was going to be my job it was gonna be my only job. I disliked that and felt my heart drop. I didn’t have much time and I didn’t want to make the wrong decision and drop the wrong job. Value Village would’ve made me happy and fit like a glove, but this one made much more money and I had friends who worked there. I didn’t know what to choose, but I knew since he was putting so much pressure on me I was probably going to pick the job with the wallet and feel guilty about it for a while for a while since I’m choosing from pressure. My job there would be a counsellor, which given my complicated last people always expected me to be one anyways. I also loved knowing people business and personal lives, so being a counsellor for people I actually knew could be pretty enjoyable for me. I went to go visit my grandma again, she was working a shift in her new job at a daycare. She was supposed to only work the afternoon shift but it was nighttime and she was still working because her coworker canceled work to go on vacation. My grandma didn’t mind working for 9 hours that day, because she got a lot more money. I was at the mall with Ryan and Leo and we were all sitting near McDonald’s. Leo got a small burger. I wanted to get my food from a different restaurant so I asked them to come with me and we could just all sit near the other one. First Ryan wanted to go to the washroom and change his clothes and I needed to change too. I told Leo if he still wanted his food to be hot later he should definitely use a microwave to heat it up. He didn’t wanna use a microwave he said it was fine and he’d just order a Big Mac cause a bigger burger would stay hot for longer. Him and Ryan saw a seat they liked near McDonald’s where two kids were sitting with their food. I told them not to waste their time cause we’re gonna move to the other restaurant but they went up to the kids anyways. They asked the two kids if they could move so we could sit there. The two boys (looked about 9) introduced themselves and said that they fight with eachother a lot. One was skinny and one was a little overweight. The skinny one was knocking or something on the other ones head when they started to argue a little. Ryan and Leo talked to the overweight one and the skinny one started to want attention. The skinny one yelled really loud and harshly at the other one. It went from them kinda okay fighting to the situation actually being uncomfortable and I didn’t know how to react. I was babysitting my half sister Karina and she looked about 3 years old. She was playing with these mini spoons and forks, that were red and black. Karina started choking on the plastic toy spoon. I picked her up and ran to my ex-mom screaming she was chucking and to do something. Ex mom just screamed at me yelling “how could you let her choke in the first place, you weren’t babysitting her properly this is on you”. I felt karinas throat and felt the toy spoon inside. There were two other little boys there too.