weird feelings

Date: 2/23/2021

i had dream where i woke up to a white boy in my bed and i asked wtf he was going there. he said “eh just chilling.” the tv was on so i was absently watching that as i felt his eyes burning on the side of my face. i don’t know why but we eventually start arguing- i guess i like this dude? cause in the end we both sat up from my bed and he said “dude i’ve been having a crush on you now for the longest time! why do you think i wrote all those songs about you” (i didn’t know he wrote songs about me) “i just eventually gave up bc you didn’t reciprocate my feelings for so long” that’s when i remembered he was now in a relationship w a different girl and idk why that hurt me. i got up and left the room, not crying but feeling strange. i went to my parents room where my family was looking outside the windows and yelling at teenagers from another school to go away. apparently one of the neighboring schools decided it’s been an awsome idea to let the kids roam around the neighborhoods but they were being destructive. i remember yelling my lungs out to this group of girls who were trying to break into my house? and the coach they were with was just staring at them proudly?? one of them climbed up to the window and i shoved her out and she broke her neck and died. i also had a pool in the dream so that’s where these teenagers were trying to go. eventually everything got dangerous so i had to be taken somewhere safe- while there i couldn’t stop thinking about my friend/ boy who wrote songs about me. i felt so sad and i just wanted to talk to him