Lezing Out?

Date: 7/21/2018

I was getting ready to take a shower in the gang bathroom, when I saw an old friend from high school named Alana, who was also getting ready to shower. She came in with me to the same shower I was going to use. She then told me to take off my towel; since I was too scared to take it off in front of her, she took it off for me and did the same. She told me that I looked so sexy naked. While we were both naked, she ended up feeling up my breasts while I was pinned against the wall. I wanted her to stop, but all that came out were heavy breathing and low moans. After ten seconds, I finally told her to stop because I am straight, not a lesbian, and I have a boyfriend. She then told me no one would know, asked me seductively if I was curious about being bisexual, and told me not to deny it as she fingered me and proceeded to mouth rape me. I tried to push her away, but she was stronger than me. We ended getting caught by member of my church who was too disgusted to say a word and walked away as I said that it wasn’t what it looked like.

AI generated interpretation This dream appears to be a reflection of your inner turmoil regarding your sexual identity and boundaries. Seeing Alana, who represents a past connection and familiarity, may symbolize a part of yourself that is drawn towards exploring your sexuality. The shared shower could represent a sense of vulnerability and exposure, while being asked to remove your towel and being complimented may indicate a desire for validation and attention. However, the discomfort and fear you feel during the sexual encounter with Alana suggests that you are not ready or willing to fully explore a non-heterosexual orientation. Furthermore, the mentioning of having a boyfriend suggests that you may feel secure in your current relationship and do not wish to jeopardize it. The presence of a church member who catches you and their disgust may represent your fear of being judged by others, particularly if you were to deviate from societal norms and expectations. Overall, this dream may be a reflection of your conflicting feelings around exploring your sexuality and the pressure from societal expectations to conform to heteronormative standards. It could be beneficial to reflect on your thoughts and feelings towards your sexual identity and explore these issues in a safe and supportive environment.