too sad to take control

Date: 5/15/2016

It started with sleep paralysis. I felt it coming over me and the dark feeling. I was too sad to "fight it off" or shake myself awake. So I let it happen. I couldn't move and I was dreaming. Except I was waiting for myself to come up with something. But again I was too blue to take control. I felt myself floating up higher and higher. In a dark room. But I just. Not even in my dreams did I have the energy to try.