Untrained and on Speaker Phone

Date: 8/2/2016

I am either in some kind of club (like an after-school's club, not a dance club) or at work. My coworkers, Latoya and Palak, are there, running around busy as usual. I get called on to do work, and I am so scared / worried because I have never been trained. I fuck up very basic things. For example, there is some kind of disc / tape assigned to me that will tell me my first task, and I don't even know about it. Latoya has to load it up in the computer for me. We take a look at my first task and both agree it's strange - where is the person meant to train me? Someone should usually be here to help me other than Latoya (who is volunteering her time but really too busy for it), and they are not. I am somewhere that looks like a movie theater. I pay for something - a movie? Later, I purchase a soda, but suddenly can't remember if my last transaction ever went through / was processed. I ask the cashier if there's a way for her to check. She asks to see my Metro card. She pushes it into an ATM-like machine - it doesn't catch at first and she has to wipe the bar strip down. It turns out my last transaction was not processed. I am standing behind a pole, and for a moment the cashier thinks I've run away. When she sees me and we laugh about it, I tell her "if I had to run because of $20, I hope you would let me go." Because that would mean I am very poor. I realize now I could've gotten away with never paying, but something about that doesn't feel right / I'm still worried I would've gotten caught somehow while they were ringing me up for the soda. I am with Brian Shovlin. Margaret's name comes up and we decide to call her. I put her on speaker phone as we walk around what looks like a grocery store. As soon as she answers she starts talking about something personal. I feel very awkward because I know she'd be upset if she found out she's on speaker phone, but the whole reason we called was so we could all talk - I don't want to get stuck in a long-winded, one-on-one conversation with her. I look at Shovlin and he looks at me and I can tell he also feels a little awkward / uncomfortable. I can tell he's about to clear his throat and say something so that she knows he's there, but instead, I take her off speaker phone and start talking to her, knowing it will be a long time before I can get her off the phone again. In the grocery store, we are buying ingredients to a salad, while over on a station / countertop within the grocery store, we are making one. It looks really good and is full of chickpeas and dressing, but so far not a lot of actual lettuce. Joey is also there. I take chopped tomatoes and cucumbers in a bowl and shred up some carrots into it. It creates a lot of water - I have to take my hand and hold back the veggies as a strain pools and pools of water from the bowl (it is also one of my bowls from home). When it is finally strained, I add it to the salad. Lastly we add more lettuce to even it out. I ask Joey to bring some over, and he brings over a cracker instead. I am so annoyed. "Why would we put a single cracker into a salad?" I ask him. "I don't know, I just thought that's what you said." I push past him to grab the lettuce, thinking he is an idiot and I need to do everything on my own, and knowing we are about to get into a fight.