Loveless Night

Date: 3/31/2021

So I’m trying to remember this dream I had last night about my ex. I’ve had some dreams before but this one felt psychic. For some reason, my friend had found out where he lived. It was kind of like a double door motel. I didn’t want to be there, but she insisted. He wasn’t home, but somehow the door was unlocked. I kept telling her I wanted to leave. This bitch starts jumping on his bed. We here the door unlock and I run out of the other one. My friend’s caught up in the blanket so he sees her. I’m so embarrassed. I go right back in to apologize. Tell him I didn’t want to come. He said it was okay and actually invited me inside. His tone was empty. Like he was exhausted and worn down. I wasn’t sure if it was because of me. He was with someone else already. I thought he would be happier. But it felt off. I don’t remember what we talked about. I think I told him I missed his mom, but I can’t remember how he reacted. He was like a ghost. I know he didn’t tell me he missed me or that he still loved me, but he still moved like he had regrets. I asked him about his new girlfriend. If he was happy. He had said something along the lines of “I will eventually” or something that indicated that they were strained. Then she pulled up into the parking lot. I wasn’t scared or sad or anything. I thanked my ex and my friend and I left. But he still had a deep sadness in his eyes. Closure.