tw // suicide **not graphic** (also 3 dreams unrelated)

Date: 9/19/2019

this was an odd dream i was packing for my road trip which is in 8 months. i’m not sure why i was packing so far out. my friend was asleep on the floor. then G came in and i got really upset. i didn’t want to be alive anymore so i killed myself (i don’t remember how) but people could still see my ghost. after i died i was standing in front of a house. outside the house on the other side of the street was some of my stuff and i was just going through it when G came up to me. she was really sad but i didn’t want to talk to her or see her. next scene: i’m in aldi. i was grocery shopping like usual and i told someone i spoke french. (i’m practicing french irl) when i was done grocery shopping they made an announcement over the intercom (in french) that register 3 was open for me but the cashier spoke french. everyone was looking at me and when i walked over there were many people at register 3 who also spoke french. i started to panic cause i didn’t actually speak french. then i realized i forgot milk so i ran back to get milk but there was none left. there was only one soy milk and i wanted chocolate almond as well. i also found my metal water bottle in there and it was extremely large and distorted. my dive coach was there and asked him for help in finding more milk but he was helpless another dream i had: i haven’t smoked weed in 3.5 weeks (drug testing coming up) and in my dream i ruined my sobriety by hitting my brothers dab pen