Date: 11/23/2016
By Fitful
I was a teachers assistant in a college, which might have also been a hospital. The teacher was gone abruptly, got a new job, something. Suddenly I was in charge of both my job and hers. Something about providing a thousand dollars to 150.000 people, a promotion of some sort for being a listener to our radio. It was on the todo list as her job and I was supposed to take care of it now. It was one thing if many, just the thing on today's list, which I had expected access to being her assistant. I was surprised, kinda pleasently, to be hired for her job. There was a doctor who when I got back, (from vacation assume or sick leave) who recognized me, gave me a hug. Actually quite a few of them did. Apparently one, who was a little ditzy and quit her job every year was the only one who could fix my brain stem, and I kept asking other doctors, female friends actually one being the doctor (teacher) who left abruptly and I got her job, to her me instead but they weren't the right one. And she was so flighty and hairbrained she just couldn't pay attention to me, I felt frustrated. I had been sick now I think. It was the way they treated me, as if I had been away due to sick leave and now was back a few days and readjusting. I was in the woods, trying to keep up with a family who enjoyed hiking. It was less like hiking however, we went the whole way down this tiny straight dirt road. It was flat even, why it was difficult was beyond me but I was having a hard time breathing. I was falling behind and dropping things, I dropped deodorant and left it there, something about i'd get it when I came back around. Even the children in the family could keep up better than me. One little baby kept falling behind me, it was like a year in a half so it was understandable. It tried to keep running but it actually fell behind me, and i was struggling too. Later a police officer was watching their kids, specifically the baby, so we could go faster, like babysitting. It's possible I was a part of this family. It did feel as if I was new to the family somehow. A woman appeared, creepy, scary, like in some horror movie with a ghost sunken face. Dark eye sockets. Just her outline, like a cardboard cutout silhouette standing right in front of me, except it was on a background with no floor or ceiling. She said it petulantly, like blaming, she said "I'm leaving." I felt relief, as if she was someone who had been plaguing me and I had been trying to be happy she was here, but I hadn't really been happy. I felt new hope rise, or a wanting to have hope, and glad she was leaving. I really did not want to feel glad about it, it seemed too petty and I was holding back for that reason and because I don't want her to know I was happy, lest she cancel her leaving. But I actually was happy she was leaving. She seemed a bit evil/controlling/worrisome to me.