Dating?

Date: 5/12/2020

I was at this choir event and it was kind of like a reunion thing except, it wasn’t affiliated with what I did in high school. They put random people in charge to make up these performances and I was in the front and sara was like in the third row. It was weird because I had no idea what I was doing and she was obviously way better than me. Eventually, we were in this tent thing like lined up. I was behind sara on one of the edges. Then we were in this giant tent where the boys performed for us. Sara was like “who is THAT” and pointed to this one guy I talked to for like one day. I told her it was brad and that we talked for a day and then never again. Eventually I guess, I was dating a guy, but he was a mix of three people. At first, he was a perfect mix of a guy named kai sickler and Tate from American horror story. My friends thought I could do better so I kind of kept it from them. They also thought that I was ditching them a lot to be with him. I just remembered we would hug A LOT.... even when walking. Normally, I think that stuff is embarrassing when you do it too much in public, but in this dream it was so nice. I also had a feeling I already had another boyfriend with brown hair, but I honestly couldn’t remember. Hugging this blonde guy made me feel so desired by someone. Idk. Eventually we walked to “my bedroom” which was this random fake room in my dream. We got on the bed and started making out. We made out for a loooong time. I probably kissed his entire face- the only thing is that he looked like he was hiding the fact that he was in pain the whole time. It was the most emotion and feeling I’ve ever felt kissing a guy, especially since I realized he wasn’t going to force me into sex or pressure me. In my dream I remembered my ex boyfriend from high School and how we would kiss for like 2 minutes and then he’d immediately try to take my virginity and get mad when I said no. This guy i was with in my dream, just wanted to be near me and that gave me such a good feeling. When I was kissing him, he put his arms around my back and my head and pulled me in for a hug to lay with him. He looked tired. I eventually told sara, and she asked if he “took charge”. In that moment I realized that I was in charge the whole time. And then in horror, a thought crossed my mind that the only person that I’d want to have sex with was my ex because he’s the only one that made me feel afraid. I pushed that thought away when I heard blake DeLeon running towards me. We’re best friends with a marriage pact, so he ran up screaming “you liar! Your a dirty cheater how could you do this to me?” I laughed it off, but I’ve always known that he’s been partially serious. Eventually we were walking up to this giant house for a fancy party for some important lady. Apparently they were secretly bringing in two cakes to celebrate two birthdays without her knowing. I was walking in with sara, my boyfriend and me. When we were walking up, I was in the stroller just listening. My boyfriend, who was a mix of kai and Tate, turned into this other guy I know named timmy. I don’t like him, he’s so cocky and full of himself. He was telling sara about how he would make me clean the house and make all the money and do the dishes and basically be his servant while he did whatever he wanted with me. I knew this would bother sara to death, but she didn’t say anything. Then I was in the house and I was pushing the stroller with my little sister savannah in it, trying to find somewhere to put her. Then it ended.