walking with bad bean

Date: 9/26/2016

Law school Class just ended. Its weird because classes was done at the house of Colina-Quirante, in their kitchen. It was past 9pm and my classmates (kim, china, shenrich, jpl, garelle, jv) were doing the usual classroom ruckus everytime the class ends. People were standing up and picking their bags up and chitchatting. I was the first one to be near the door and i looked at them all also about to exit. Since it was past 9 Ate Minda had already closed the pharmacy and now we all have to take the exit thru the back door. Uncle Eli was there watching the daily news in his couch as the students were passing by behind him on their way to the exit. I watched the news, standing up, behind the couch. It was about the recent senate hearings about senators delima and cayetano and trillanes. Pop I got my thoughts back. I was too busy watching the news as if i was hypnotized by the tv that when i regained my consciousness i was the only student left, except for bad bean, who was sitting in a stool in the corner watching me. He stood up as we looked at each other and approached me. He told me how everyone else already left and are eating dinner somewhere he doesn't know. (As you know, bad bean isn't part of the one and only friendship circle in the class because he doesn't share the political views that everyone has. He is a supporter of trillanes and even looks like him. He is who everyone thinks is the bad bean of the class and now i am stuck with him.) We exited the house and were slowly walking as we turned left with me unaware where we were going. It was raining. It was a different kind of rain. The raindrops fell at a slower rate and there were very few of them. It was as if they were snowflakes in the form of raindrops. There was an awkward silence between us as we walked our very slow pace towards nowhere. At the front of Jolo's house, without saying anything, he put his left arm around my neck and looked at me as we walked even slower. I could see his face in my periphery as he watched me looking down, trying to feel awkward as less as possible, trying to take control of the situation miserably, and trying not to romantically fall for the bad bad bean. (As you know, having someones arm around my neck really gets me and is one of the keys to the romantic emotional side of my heart. Now this is of course our little secret.) At the front of Jolo's house, we were taking very small slow steps. Maybe we were enjoying the quiet company of each other. No words were spoken. No other things were done except the casual obvious small stares he does to me and I, a victim to his romantic seduction, never returned the favor of looking at him but was obviously emotionally affected by everything and internally out of control. We were walking but the moment had already swept me off my feet. The guy who doesn't have much friends, who was the usual quiet guy in the corner, who was just a bit taller than me, who resembles my best friend, and who had no umbrella in the snow-rain is into me, maybe, but i do know that on that quiet dark snowy-rainy street i was into him, mr bad bean. "Please take my first kiss away" I said to him, breaking the chilling silence. "The moment is perfect. Please kiss me." (This was an imaginary conversation of course. I wanted so bad to tell that to him. I wanted so bad to seize the moment and fall in love right then and there but still i kept things to myself.) We were approaching a group of boys sitting in a small food truck that lit this awful romantic street. As we were walking beside them one of the boys recognized me and finally broke the long mutual silence. "Hey Rain! I checked your inventory in Dota2 and saw that u had duplicates of this Mirana item. Send me some, man." With his arms still wrapped around my neck, and his torso really close to mine, i struggled to look at Ivan and give him a reply. "Uhmmmm oh yes, ok, i'll send them to you" I looked at bad bean in my periphery and he just stared at the street, continued walking, and paid no attention to Ivan and what we were talking about. Ivan kept saying stuff about dota2 and games but i had lost my attention to him because for first time i looked at bad bean and it was in this moment that i died inside. I looked at him, at his face. I never thought he looked this handsome before. Close up i could see his features, his manly features, his strong unbroken stare into the horizon, his eyes that looked fierce in the dimly lit street, his soft warm skin kissed by every drop of snow-rain that fell, and his long dark hair made darker by the night. "Hey. Rain!" Ivan said in a loud voice that freed me from the trance that is mr bad bean. "Ahhhh yes. Ok i will" i said, fidgeting with words. I didn't know what Ivan said. I just told him yes. He smiled...omg... I heard bad bean smile and make a small puff of air in a mini laughter. He was smiling at me, noticing my uneasiness and loss of control. I smiled back and looked at him smiling at me as we continued our quiet walk. "Do you know that there is a new computer café nearby? Its called Chrome and their pcs are actually pretty good. Its just at the end of this block." "Hey, rain!" Another voice called. It was Shenrich and the rest of the class. They were eating at a café we had just passed but didn't notice. "Come on, eat with us" she said. I didn't really want to leave bad bean behind and break the bond we had just shared. "Come, eat with us" i told him with a small smile. He made an innocent smirk "Nah, you go." . . . . "But i'll be expecting you in Chrome after you eat" he said as he took his arm off my neck, looked at my friends looking at us, and smiled again at me. "Okay, i'll see you later" i told him as i gave him one last look before going to the gang. I walked backwards and watched him walk away in his usual small quiet steps in the pavement In his college uniform With his small suitcase in his right hand Alone Looking at the starry sky In the night. I turned to my friends and took skipping steps and thought to myself. He's actually a pretty nice guy. I was so worried about seizing the moment but he already did. End PS im a guy (Hey future self incase u forget who bad bean is in this dream, he looked like ur hs bestfriend and ur favorite cousins male bestfriend and your secret college crush in one.)