My Past 3 Days

Date: 1/4/2018

I have had a little bit of a dry spell when it comes to my average types of dreams that i post about...no conscious OBE'S no Lucid Dreams and no real fixated dream with a straight scenario that i felt was worthy of posting about...just a bunch of abstract images i thought. But like most of my findings in myself i tend to take what i go through for granite, These flashes of things peope and places were actually fully rounded situations which i was previously unable to interpret. JANUARY 1st 2018: I had been trying to lift out of my body, something that had became a daily routine and action of mine. I had faced so many set backs from not being able to breathe properly, my sisters coming in my room and bothering me, my body not falling into deep sleep etc. it felt like whatever couldve possibly stop me, stopped me. Me extremely angry at myself had yet to find out why...i did everything right infact i came up with an even faster and easier process that wouldve worked just a few days ago so i wonder...what changed. I can recall atleast 12-13 attempts throughout 12/31/17-1/1/18 with no luck of any kind. If you could believe this, i had actually tried so much tha i began to understand how consciousness works a lot better every failure i had to leave the body i gained skill of staying conscious without any energy wasted...i was consciously awake while my body was asleep for what i found out to be around 8 hours, the whole sleep process. I had the perfect state to leave literally everything was perfect, i had felt my astral self and aimed to get out but i felt this static field around me stopping me...why was it self doubt or some higher force, it turned out to be neither. Flashes: There was this open space, whitish grey, a tower and other people there with me...familiar faces, Strange Occurence: I was once again trying to leave the body and this time something strange happened, my ear was pulled hard i look up to see my best friend with this aura around him, that of an astral projector...He was laughing along with...another me telling him "Seeee i told you". I get upset and try to hit him but found myself punching the side of my bed with no one in the room. I touch my ear and it was hot, it felt sensitive but no distress .Was this my possible future to bring my friend over to my past and have him pull my ear...what for other then to prove consistency, why would i dream about such a random event, could it be real. ____________________________________ JANUARY 2ND 2018 I try once again to have an astral projection but no use...i did everything right and i hit the stage where im suppose to seperate but no vibrations which usually helps me know i can leave, i also still have thist static around me again and i realize something interesting, in my inner conscious (this state of limbo between dream world and waking life) i notice this energy developing around me, the same energy tht i have when astral projecting...i feel it waving and moving, every pulse gets more defined and almost condensing in a way and i thought "It might be like an upgrade (for a lack of a better word) of some sorts, just like a muscle my astral ability has to be worked out and i worked out to the point where it needs to build up i continue, I understand this and stop trying to project until its over. Super Conscious: my higher conscious, sub conscious, super conscious all the same things and it is the reason why ive came this far in the first place the upgrade i was talking about effects me astrally and physically i can sense others emotions and intentions along with contol my vibrations even in waking life and more ____________________________________ JANUARY 3RD 2018 I take a nap after a long day and i find myself conscious again, not fully like the other two nights but i seemed to be in congruence with my higher self, it was talking to either me or someone else that was present, it sounds like me but it is like i said a higher self, i remember it explaining how i can use the energy that i corelate to astral projection, i feel it all around me through me and in me frankly because it is me...i find myself traveling to these other places the beginning of a dream where it is a blank canvass before a beautiful painting and in this state of transition, i am aware some dreams arent actually dreams at all but theres more on that later. I seem to travel through these different places consciously but not astrally the difference? (Conscious travel sometimes isnt actually conscious at all but when it is you can experiene these dream like places on your own, its NOT astral projection for the simple reason that your astral body is not going on the adventure with you...it is still "home")