Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 3/15/2018
By shardi
I was in some sort of group setting. We were required to help a criminal to do some sort of art work and then report back to the rest of the group. I seemed to be with Lisa I think, and the criminal we were working with was a man who called himself Testella, though his full name was Anthony Estella. I don’t know if I actually knew what he did, but it was something bad. He wasn’t evil though. I wasn’t scared of him. He was tough but quite funny. He was a tough guy but he seem to really get into the art work we were doing with him and was good at it. There seemed to be some quite deep thinking around it, maybe this is to do with my counselling course. it was really interesting and I was very caught up in what I was doing. It Came to the point of feeding back to the group, and Lisa and I chose different bits each to relate to them, I was really nervous and didn’t know how to approach it really, but she was saying, just pray for him. And that seemed right. All that went fine, and the group received it really well, the artwork was interesting and revealing, although he was a bit of a handful to get hold of so that he could express what he wanted to as well. But I seem to have understood him quite well. And I was obviously getting closer to him. Afterwards, when we said goodbye we were holding each other and sobbing, and I realise that I loved him and he loved me. But because of his situation Nothing could be done about it, we had to say goodbye. It was sad. 🤔What does this mean? It’s interesting. I think the name is significant when it’s very clear in a dream… Googling it I find it Testella is a rare surname without a meaning, but Estella is a first name which means star. Anthony means highly praiseworthy or priceless. Certainly if a man wanted me he would be an amazing one...a priceless star!! And maybe his unavailability was because of my relative imprisonment in illness. I was able to see past his tough exterior, that there was a good heart beneath, I suppose I’m hoping that someone can see beyond my problems. It would be great if it was God telling me, “it’s okay this great love with a priceless star of a man is going to happen for you” but I think it’s probably just me expressing what I’m feeling and projecting it on to someone else. Even down to the doing art.