Uncontrollable paranoia-induced sobbing

Date: 10/4/2017

We were sitting in the gym and some cross country person out of no where yelled I HATE [my full name] I had no idea who she was, she looked like a sophomore but I never had any interaction with her. The whole gym was silent it was a lot of people, then she yelled it again. Her friend sitting next to her looked embarrassed for her, but she wasn’t, I was so confused. Fast forward we were inside someone’s house, I guess everyone decided they would make me happy by holding up signs on sticks of pictures and smiling profusely, which made me panic, my breathing started going so fast and I started to cry, which made them surround me even more. Then D came out and told them to stop, which is really weird because D can be the meanest person sometimes. By the time they left me alone I was sobbing but D was trying to comfort me. Fast forward now I see J and T sitting on a couch in the living room of this house. I smile and J tells me she knows why that girl yelled that she hated me. It wasn’t because she hated me, she said, it was because she liked me. I was so confused so I sat down in between them, but before she had a chance to explain I noticed something strange, that the couch had been turned so it was facing the other way. This made me freak out. I said “hey who turned the couch” and they said “what what do you mean it was always like this.” I stood up and backed away, I was freaking out. I went to Mom who was in the bathroom. She was doing something in front of the mirror. I cried to her a bit but it wasn’t helpful so I left. I knew the people with the signs would come to me once they knew I had another meltdown so I tried to find the exit as fast as I could, but as I was trying to unlock the door, they found me. I was sobbing as they surrounded me, I covered my ears and closed my eyes and fell to the floor. Then D came again and said STOP STOP CANT YOU SEE YOUR HURTING HER and pushed through them to hug me Then I woke up