Which one?

Date: 3/28/2018

So a lot of people ask me, how would you describe your perfect dream boy? Well I don’t want a boy, I want a man! And me being 20 years old I have met many, but one has stuck to me. While at the same time I have a major crush... The guy I currently like and I’m willing to wait for is Gene. Gene and I dated for about a month, but within that month we had nothing but good memories. I’d say Gene was the first guy ever to treat me the way I should be treated. The way he looked into my eyes and told me I was beautiful, how we went on for long car rides and he would scare me but then feel bad and take me to go star gazing on the beach. How I would wake up and he would be looking at me with admiration. How he held my hand gently but firmly, when he kissed me he put both hands around my face and put my hair behind my ears. Gene had my heart sooner than I thought I would have given it to him. I didn’t intend to fall for him but I did. He eventually dumbed me and I didn’t know why. I still till this day am waiting for him to come back to me. But he intends to keep pushing away. But on the other hand I have this crush on another man named Noah! Noah is a year younger than Gene but seven months older than me. Noah is super Christian but has such a romantic heart you’d never knew existed. His perspective on love is unbelievable and the way he looks into your eyes you would for get to breathe. He sings and plays guitar, also has his first single out as well. I’ve known Noah for about three months and I see him twice a week at church. Noah and I don’t have much of a connection but we do acknowledge each other hello and goodbye. Noah on the other side has that ways of taking your heart without even getting to know you personally. But he also is very distant and won’t level with you on a personal conversation, he always finds a way to hold back and put up a wall. But Noah is looking for that one girl to challenge him and understand and look past his appearance and read what’s inside. But what should I do? Should I wait for Gene who pushes away but has my heart, or should I give Noah a chance and see where it goes?