Leaving Again, Rapper is my Brother

Date: 7/26/2022

Seems as though I’m in some sort of hotel again with my girlfriend. There are moments when I’m in the dream, sleeping on some furniture that’s red pleather and it’s square shaped. I think it’s because in real life, I’ve been getting ads about this pillow square thing and how it’s supposed to help side sleepers. Anyway, we’re about to leave, when I end up outside with a rapper who died of COVID, Fred the Godson. I had recently looked him up in real life, so I’m guessing that’s why he was in the dream. It was a moment where I should have asked myself if I was dreaming. In the dream even I kept thinking, “isn’t he dead?”. He was sitting in a wheelchair for some reason. Also, we were talking as if he were my brother. He was saying things off cuff as if he had a chip on his shoulder. In real life, that’s what’s going on with my real brother. Anyways, in the dream, Fred is saying these remarks, and I’m y thinking, “he might die or be dead, so this is a good time to reconcile”. So we briefly talked things over and then we hugged. The hug felt real because he was a heavy set dude and I felt like I was having a hard time fully hugging him. This was so real, we started crying like that heavy cry you try to hold back. This felt so real to me, and just yesterday I was thinking about how I need to cry and let things out since I haven’t in a very long time. Maybe that was it for me. Then, he was gone and I was thinking, “was he really there, or did he die after that?” I was so confused. I end up back in the hotel, and as we are finishing packing, Fred ends up in the room. He’s standing up now with a haircut. I introduced him to my girlfriend as my brother, and say final goodbyes. Before I leave, I feel prompted to pray for him. I was thinking, this could be the last time I ever see him. So I pray this really powerful prayer over Fred. That’s the last thing I recall.